“At times, the desire to disappear creeps in - vanishing into the shadows, becoming a ghost in the dark, unseen by a world that has failed to understand you. You imagine slipping away, leaving no trace, so the weight of every unspoken word, every shattered expectation, every unhealed wound might fade into oblivion. You long for silence, for emptiness - where nothing can touch you, where the cracks in your soul, the ones you fight so hard to hide, are no longer visible to anyone.

But in that silence, something stirs - a deeper truth emerges: what you truly crave isn’t to vanish; it’s to be found. You don’t want to disappear; you want someone to see you, to see past the mask of strength and recognize the fractures beneath. You yearn for someone to find the broken parts of you - the ones you’ve concealed in plain sight - and hold them, not with pity, but with understanding.

The cracks you desperately try to shield are what make you real, what makes you human. What you truly seek is not escape, but the courage of someone willing to reach deep into your soul, to pull you from the darkness, to find you in your brokenness, and remind you that even in your deepest wounds, you are worthy of being seen, worthy of being loved, worthy of being whole again.” 

- Gabriel Lavine · 2025